This is a mystery school where your test is your actions, your responses.... ~OSHO~

Whatever I am saying you may not be able to repeat in words, but it will be resounding in your heart, in your being, and it will do its work. It will change you. You will see the change in your actions, in your behavior, the way you respond in situations. That will be the proof - not that you remember what I have said.

And don't force yourself to remain awake, because that means you are creating a disturbance in the harmony. Allow yourself to be overwhelmed completely and lost into it. It is not falling asleep, it is falling into samadhi.

Samadhi and sleep are very close; they appear almost the same. Because we are accustomed to and we know sleep, when for the first time samadhi starts happening we think it is sleep. Sleep is known, samadhi is unknown. The only difference is in sleep you have dreams; in samadhi you don't have any dreams but just a silence, utter silence - a deep stillness as if you are no more.
In church, the priest did not allow anybody to leave in the middle of his sermon. His reason was that it wakes up people who are taking a beautiful morning nap.
I also prevent people from leaving in the middle, although for a different reason. There are a few people who are moving towards samadhi and if you simply leave, it creates a disturbance. You may disturb their state, their harmony; they may lose the track.
Whatever is happening,  is perfectly beautiful; just accept it with great gratitude. This is what I want to happen to everybody.
That will be one of the happiest days for me; when everybody here is absent, is in a state of nothingness - in a sense present, perhaps for the first time in his life; present as a silence, and for the first time absent as a separate entity; when everybody becomes one with the whole and slowly slowly melts. The place is no longer so many people here, but just a lake of consciousness without any ripples.
Just to check whether you are in that state or not, my strategy is to use a joke; that gives you a jerk.
If I see that it is giving you a jerk, that means you were in the right space. And after the joke ... you have laughed and you go back again.
You don't need anything but a joke.
A zebra managed to get loose from a zoo and wandered into the countryside. He came to a farm, where the first thing he saw was a sheep. "What do you do?" asked the zebra. "I grow wool," said the sheep.
Then he saw a cow. "What do you do?" asked the zebra. "I give milk," said the cow.
Next he saw a hen. "What do you do?" asked the zebra. "I lay eggs," said the hen.
Then he saw a bull. "What do you do?" asked the zebra.
"First take off those fancy pajamas and I will show you!"
 So just a joke once in a while ... you wake up, you have a jerk and then again the silence.
You have heard Basho's famous haiku:
An ancient pond, A frog jumps in, The sound and the silence again.
And the second silence is deeper than the first silence. The frog has disturbed it for a moment, but again the silence comes back and it is deeper than the first.
It is just like you are walking on a street in the night. It is dark. A car comes by and you see the light.
It passes by you and for a moment there is light, strong light, and then again there is darkness. You will be surprised: now the darkness is deeper than it was before. The experience of light has thrown you deeper into darkness.
Many times, not knowing how life grows, we start creating problems. Now,  is going perfectly well ... even that becomes a problem. One starts thinking something must be wrong:
Nobody else is going perfectly well, and I am going perfectly well ... I am not normal. Everybody is fully awake, listening, and I am disappearing into a deep silence - and certainly you will not be able to recall what I have been saying.
But that is not needed, this is not a university where you have to be examined for your memory.
This is a mystery school where your test is your actions, your responses. Whether you have heard me or not will depend ... if it changes your behavior pattern then you have heard me. Whether you remember my words or not, that is irrelevant.
OSHO